Today I learned and maybe fixed a piece of realisation, that i rest my belief in the continuity of life after death.Not a thought experiment, not a food for thought but finally fix the set of neurons and nail them down so I can build on this thought rather than waste further time on the debate of it. I think my semesters are expiring and need to get down some crash courses and pretend to belief so hard that the pretense dies out and it somehow gets real where it rests.

So my attachments to my career and there by my proud intelligence and maybe to some extent my attachments to my family are Im not gonna say loosen yet but a few molecules of the glue which holds it and jiggling. Im able to see myself from a little distance. But it’s happening for fractions of seconds but it is happening. I’m able to not obsess over things definitely tiny by the size of the universe and somehow let it go effortlessly saying to myself I mean Im gonna persist after this short span of measured human life. It’s like I’m a billionaire who had a thought of a middle class person, like his mind got hijacked by one single thought from a poor persons mind saying is a Starbucks coffee really worth it, should i spend like 500 bucks on some coffee I might not even like. And then the billionaire’s actual mind thoughts come out and say why so much thoughts for a penny. Like buy it it’s practically free.

So I’m the billionaire of life experiences. It’s perpetual and I’ve all the time of the universe. You want this small career peak, just have it, it’s practically free. Why am I investing all my soul energy at this. It’s really a penny.

Yeah that was My Journey – One